At some point you gotta stop choosing people who aren’t choosing you. Put all that energy that you’ve been putting into them, back into yourself. You have way too much going for you.
I just wanna say it’s okay to feel how you’re feeling right now. It might be uncomfortable or feel wrong, but remember, it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to feel anxious, guilty, sad, or angry sometimes. These are normal human emotions. Let them run their course instead of beating yourself up over it. Give yourself lots of love and patience, and you will feel better